The Fear Pages

I'm mentally fucked from the dream I just had! I dreamt I was walking up a hill in a park with my son and America was under attack. I kept seeing missiles hitting us but there was some kind of grid. Then one missile actually hit .. except it was a nuke and it was green and Looked like halley's comet! Then my son and I got hit by the shockwave. It felt like a really cool wind and it knocked us off our feet and we started like tumbling and being thrown. Then we got up and continued our journey. Next thing I know, there was a weird feeling..and It felt like weird in my tummy, but it felt like I was separated suddenly from my body. Like the feeling of falling but not. Anyhow, then me and my son smiled and realized we were now ghosts and we walked up another hill but in a hotel and we started rising and going up.

Maybe I should start from the beginning when it all started. My family won't know who I am so I'm safe... when I was 7 I was taken aboard an ET craft.. was implanted by these strange beings with huge eyes, anyways it's your typical ET contact experience. Except I wasn't scared like most. In fact I felt I was biologically like them but I don't know how I knew that because outwardly I looked just like any human. Nothing special about me. Inwardly I also am built the same. So why would I have this idea as a 7 year old upon meeting these creatures that I was biologically the same somehow? Whenever I was around them I got the sense they were my literal biological family.... anyways, after this things got real strange. I could see things I never could before, like dead people (ghosts), I could see into dimensions I could't before...anyways this encounter is a typical UFO story. I'm sure many are already familiar with stories of UFO encounters.

I've done things, psychically that I can't take back. I've seen things I can't unseen ever again. And yet, I just go to work, pay bills and live a normal ass life in a paranormal ass world. I've never touched a drug in my life... sometimes I wish I had, I wish that this, that my whole life, what I've seen, what I've done were just incredible drug fueled delusions but they're not and I have to contend with the fact that it's all real. There were witnesses too. So no matter how hard I fucking try to write it off as hysteria others saw the things I saw, at the same time without me saying anything first sometimes. From a bright blue ball of light or sphere of blue energy to time travel.

Due to my recent astral meeting with Vladimir Putin I can't go back to normal, how do you? How do you go back to normal knowing these politicians can do what they do? How do you go back to normal knowing a bunch of psy ops soldiers can walk between dimensions, shove a black oily pill down your throat in the hopes you'll forget everything you saw? Well it didn't work guys, I'm still here and I still remember. Yea my thoughts sounds schizo as hell I know that's because when you've encountered so many paranormal things and then nothing, and then you never have a strange encounter again your brain tends to get fucked up because you know, now you know what the real world is and how the fuck do you go back from that?